As if life is on-hold

As if life is on hold...

why the procrastination? is that adulthood's fault?

living without goals or dreams...

giving up on life unseen...

no one to nurture the smallest wish...

no longer willing to just receive...

loving with the mind... falling out for things that were mine...

nothing to look up to or for...

is that adulthood's fault?

failures or success...

money or not...

are now just a source of bills...

doesn't affect me...why for?

no longer I miss my friends or family...

how can i... if I have already lost myself?

did my childhood went on its own feet or it was silently killed?

where is the excitement gone...

why everything is analyzed before?

a lot of question arises now...

why I stopped living my life the way I once wished for! ~MoKa